God's Wisdom

So this past weekend I sat through an Evangelistic Artist conference put on by Steiger.
It was nice to be filled with God's spirit and moved toward his will as well, to feel his encouragement. However, the most moving thing was Him breaking my heart for the lost and telling me to go out and get to know the people he has called me to.

I think the most important thing I learned and one the most profound quotes I have heard in my walk with Jesus is; "The greatest need people have is to be forgiven, Jesus is great enough to meet those needs". In all his glory he is smart enough, wise enough, and powerful enough to forgive and to teach us at the same time, all he needs us to do is be willing to serve and be used by him.

So many people get mixed up thinking they have to preach the cross, when the cross can preach itself, it just needs you to be a voice unto the people. It has been my experience that we get so consumed thinking we have to have the perfect ministry and everything has to look so good that when it comes time to present the gospel everything else has consumed the space needed to present the gospel, and it becomes watered down. You see, we live amongst a generation that is not afraid to give their life for the gospel, that is not afraid to tell there friends at high schools and in colleges that Jesus died for them and that he loves them unconditionally. It is our mission to preach the word of God to all nations. I love that God trains us in how to do this, as well as how to face the persecution that comes along with it
(see Matthew 5). God is great this way

I conclusion, may he bless and keep you safe, and his perfect will shine on you and through you. And if I do not see you very often, know my heart longs to....

A Road Trip

So Alicja and I are off on our road trip. Not far just to Kansas City and Chicago and a couple other stops we don't know of where the Lord may take us. We are sitting in the prayer room right now and just sitting here I feel the presence of God resting on me and moving in me resting on me, fanning the fire he has placed in me, growing and growing and growing and growing the fire gets hotter and hotter and will not be extinguished. This fire is even to hot for the impostor to come near, which will allow God the time in me to work through me and build me stronger before the impostor finds another way to come at me, but it won't matter, cause by that point God will have already told me a way to get out of that trap and the impostor will not know where I am getting this information until I yell it at him saying HOLY , HOLY , HOLY IS GOD THE FATHER AND OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST OUR BLESSED SAVIOR AND MAKER, YOU HAVE NO CHANCE OF WINNING ME OVER!!!!! STEP BACK AND SUBMIT TO YOUR MAKER YOU IMPOSTOR, YOU FAKE, YOU WILL LOSE!!!!. You see as I sit here God is speaking through me and to me with tears gone and guilt fallen off I am able to sit and hear his voice his calling, his intimacy with me is growing. I am going to worship.... God bye for now.... He is calling me to his throne right now and I need to.......................

Things Change Inside ......

So I have noticed a change in me and in Alicja since Sundays proposal. It seems as though everything is new and we feel closer..obviously right? So I am sitting at work today (not busy by the way) and I felt this proud and peaceful feeling come over me. I mean, things have changed so much in the past five years and to be where I am right now feels great, to love again, to be in love, God is faithful in his word in not allowing my heart to feel the same pain I felt in the past. I hope people can make it to our wedding in December.

An Engagement

So many things have happened since moving to Minneapolis but this was definitely a shock to even me. So it was a warm day yesterday and the sun was shining bright and Alicja and I were on our drive to Stillwater, MN to pick up a ring we bought the weekend prior. So we arrive in Stillwater and settle down in a coffee shop for the morning to do homework and read until the Antique store opens at 11. You see the ring we bought was made in 1860 and has a long history of beauty, I am sure an anointing from the Lord as well so it had to be resized a little. So we pick up the ring and walk to our favorite little diner down the street to eat lunch. We sit and enjoy a wonderful lunch as well as an uplifting conversation to one another, that involved much talk of life together and how much joy we find in each other. So after our lunch we took a drive into Wisconsin where we traveled to Willow River State Park and walked a mile to the beautiful waterfalls. After spending some time in God's presence by the waterfalls we walked up a very long set of stairs to a platform that overlooked the river as well as a thousands of acres of trees and forest. Standing on the edge of this platform I knelt down before my beautiful bride to be and asked her to spend her life being loved by a man who adores her....me. She said YES!!! and we stood on that platform for about 45 minuets embracing each other and enjoying the treasure we both feel God just gave us.....each other.

This is just the beginning of a love story that has many more pages to add......

P.S I love Alicja

Here we go again

So after much prayer and waiting I have decided to go back to school and finish my Bachelor's Degree in Drug and Alcohol Counseling. I am really excited because it is actually pretty cheap and I don't have to spend ten years doing it. Not that there is anything wrong with going to school for ten years however it's not for me. So it has been trusting process getting all my paperwork in and having to overcome a couple of obstacles to get my transcripts but I got them and once again God is faithful. So for now that is what I have to update you on and I will try to write more in the future.

New Challenges

So the past few months have been interesting for me, it has brought some new and good challenges. I know relationships can be hard and sometimes difficult, and sometimes we feel like giving up. Well I am here to tell you, that I, in no way, feel like giving up. The enemy tries so so hard sometimes to tell me that it is not possible to to love or be loved and just at the right times God steps in and tells me, better yet, he shows me that I can. There are many new things to learn when in a relationship with someone from a different culture. I am truly truly blessed to have such a wonderful woman in my life that loves me and calls me out on my stubborn attitude.

We all need to be willing to change and willing to adjust to a new way of living. Currently, Alicja and I are taking a course on planning and organization, we love our teacher (who happens to be her mentor as well) she has given us so many great ideas and ways of changing, which is as i said before, hard to do. Some ways I have come to be against in my way of living are a big part of how I need to change and how I need to live my life.

I do not know yet what the outcome will be, but I am so very happy and excited to learn what my King wants to teach me.

Whats New

So life has been interesting lately and challenging all in one. I can't seem to find time to do all things I want or even need to do. I never wanted to be so busy, but then again I am not one with the perfect will, God is. I know he would not give me more than I could handle and I know he loves me unconditionally. I am excited about all the works he is doing in me and in my life, i am also excited at the things he is doing through me in others lives. I am at a point in my life in which I am thinking a lot and praying more and I feel this is the place the Lord has called me to be right now. I had this thought back in December when I was praying about moving into Bonny Doone House, that I would be called to a season of prayer and contemplation. Now here I am and find myself in contemplation even when I am giving massages at work. I am in a room that is completley quite and I am helping someone relax or heal froma long day,week, or month. I have got some of the best words from God at those times and he has giving me the Joy to continue serving him.

More To come.........................

Sadness

So I was having a conversation with a co-worker today about the influence the modeling industry and acting industry has on our society. This past weekend we were working a convention in which a young lady came to recieve a free massage and stood up after the massage to fall right down on the ground. When she came to she could not remember the last time she had eaten anything........what the........how long was that, she was representing a modeling agency at the convention. So many of us hear stories about things like this, however most never experience it.

It is ok to look beautiful and modeling is a wonderful way for men and women to make a living. However when is enough actually enough. When do you as a model decide that you are the one that has to live in that body, no one is going to do it for you. Don't you know, please open your eyes and see that you are precious, that you are beautiful, that you are special, and it is ok to take care of yourself. If you think not eating before a shoot or show is being healthy, do some research and talk to a few Doctor's and listen to waht they tell you. As I look through profiles of top models of today, i see the same thing over and over, unhealthy physical conditions. As I well know it is also not healthy to be obese either, we should care about ourselves enough to take care and look after the only body we get, this is it, if you think your getting another body here on this earth you are slightly mistaken. Love yourself, it's ok, you can, and when you don't there is a God that loves your more than anyone ever will, without reason, just because he loves you and wants to see you happy. Who you ask...........Jesus Christ thats who, if you don't know who Christ is, just write me a message and I would be glad to tell you.

Thanks for taking the time to read this if you did

Chris

New Year

So it is now 2008 and God has richly blessed me. I am at a point where i am opening my heart to new things happening, one of which is Alicja. She is a great blessing in my life, and brings me so much joy. She encourages me to grow in my relationship with Jesus and encourages me to move forward in the gifts in which the Lord has richly blessed me with. I feel as though I am in a great place right now spiritually and socially, i feel full with the joy of the Lord and feel as though I am growing continuasly in my relationship with him. I know God is doing great things in me this year so far and has promised to do great things in me and through me the rest of this year. As for Alicja and I, only God knows what the future will bring......well.... maybe he has told us some stuff as well, but you'll have to wait and see. I love you my friends and thank you for being a blessing and a part of my life. I will post new blogs as often as I can.